Perspective

Dr. Wayne Dyer once said, "If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change."

As I stood facing this scene last month, all I saw with my eyes was a bright dot of light between the barren trees on the horizon. The picture you are looking at was zoomed in about 15X with my cellphone camera because I wanted to know what the dot was. The fact that I started this blog with the metaphorical question "Where do you live?" and what "home" might mean to you, was irony that was not lost on me.

Much has happened since that first post. I meandered many days between the delirium of joy and the crude reality of life, sometimes in the same hour. But, you can probably relate. However, I am still constructing my "home", the place inside myself that feels perfectly familiar and safe, the place I know I am most welcomed and loved. See, I have always known that to get there, I have to know myself but that can be a daunting task. Each one of us is an entire universe unto ourselves with black holes and meteor showers happening all at once. To take on the terrifying task of looking at all the voids along with the matter, well, that requires a change in perspective, doesn't it? Am I going to look at myself from the lens of perfection? Or perhaps of criticism? Or am I going to choose to look at myself from the lens of curiosity? Will I be curious enough to see myself up close and not need to label myself? Can I observe all that I am, all that I do, all that I feel, all that I think, without judgement? If I manage to do that, what will I really see? And more importantly, does it have to be defined by ego?

The illuminated house by the tree remains a mystery to me. I never got close enough to it to validate whether it was a decorative facade or a shop or someone's house. That never did nor does it still concern me. I like that about myself. This dot of light in the distance caught my eye before I zoomed in on my camera and saw the details. I won't lie, I love that the details revealed themselves to me because it was so very charming but I am delighted that the dot caused in me a pause, a look, a wonder, amorphous and splendid and exactly where it was meant to be.

At home.