You probably thought this picture is a fake, or at least a stock image from the internet. No, I took this one myself while I visited Solitude Lake in High Bridge, New Jersey. There was no retouching whatsoever and I used my iPhone. It was a warm and dry July day some years ago. Breathtaking, isn't it?
If you have ever looked at something and thought it perfect, you have felt blissful, even briefly. Life teaches us that our perception is flimsy at best. Why, then, do we keep ourselves locked in imagery, in a situation, in a relationship, in a career, long after we know it is far from perfect, or at least, what we thought it was?
I am aghast at how long I have dwelled inside a space that I know is bad for me. I have gone to great lengths to find the reason for doing so, to rationalize the why. In hindsight, I still don't fully know all the answers. It depends on the day. Whether I feel confident in myself or insecure. I could wrap it up with a pretty bow, a scenario in which I hold no fault as my own, or I could throw acid on it, a scenario in which I am the main culprit. It was meant to be. I'm an idiot. You get it.
Yet, the more I live, and learn, the more I realize that if it glitters at all, put on sunglasses, and close your eyes. Your soul needs to have a long chat with you.
Listen closely.
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